God, I am sorry. But I am struggling with Love right now. There is someone in my life and you know who they are that just seems to be more and more of a disadvantage to me. I know we are supposed to love everyone - even our enemies; but I am being pushed more and more to my boiling point.
I ask you for strength. And I ask you for patience.
I am holding my tongue so much right now. This person has beat and battered me too many times and I have sat and allowed it. I have to be in contact with them for reasons that you know. But you know Lord how much stupidity affects me, and I can't help but feel like this person gets more immensely stupid every day.
They never used to be like this. Things weren't this way at first. My God why have things changed? I am fighting and resisting a lot right now. My only time of peace seems to be away from the person, yet I cannot get rid of them due to creation.
The thing that makes it worse is when it seems the relationship between I and they seems to be getting better and progressing - this person goes right back to making me feel uncomfortable and worth anything in their presence.
Why my Lord? Why? I want to love. Please show me how. Please lead me to Love.
-All is Love
-Feel-X
